I've been through a lot of ups and downs since losing my mother-in-law, Rhoda Kadalie, on Saturday.
- Grief: it's terrible to lose someone you love, even when you know it will happen
- Disbelief: now that the cancer is "done," I keep expecting to go back to life the way it was before
- Comfort: taking joy in the company of family and friends, especially in doing things with my kids
- Anger: feeling upset with the medical care she received, or rather didn't receive, from the "best"
- Loss: nostalgia for the life that she planned to lead, that we planned to spend with her
- Hope: that she will have a fitting memorial, that my book about her will preserve her legacy
- Pain: that my kids won't grow up with her anymore, that we won't read what she had yet to write
- Fear: of having to go through this yourself, or of having to watch loved ones die in the future
- Guilt: because life is going on and I can't help but enjoy its beauty, the little joys of it
- Stress: at all the things to be arranged, at the challenge of facing work with all of this happening
- Determination: to live a better life, not because of her loss but because of what she built
I should have noted in my message about the weekly Torah portion that this week is Shabbat Chazon, the Sabbath of Vision. We are about to mourn -- but see through that pain to something better that lies beyond, on the other side.
Wishing you the best vision -- and an incredible reality to follow. It happens!
We begin the final speech of Moses to the people of Israel before they enter the Promised Land. He relates the ups and downs of the years of wandering in the desert, before, finally, the people have the merit to enter the land itself.
This Sabbath always precedes Tisha B'Av, the Ninth of Av, the saddest day on the Jewish calendar. It is the anniversary of the destruction of both of the Holy Temples, and a catch-all for many calamities that befell the Jewish people.
A word on Tisha B'Av. This year I am leaving for an overseas trip during the afternoon of the holiday -- in the middle of a fast day. Not idea, but there was no other choice. But my flight is in the afternoon, which is significant.
We relax some of the harsh, mournful customs of the day in the afternoon. We start to pray normally; we sit on regular chairs; we start to have hope again in the redemption that will, one day, lead us all back from exile to our home.
I'll be taking a trip to a land where an important part of ...
President Trump is in Scotland, playing golf and making big trade deals -- a major deal with the EU, in fact. Meanwhile, there is a global outcry about humanitarian aid to Palestinians (not about the Israeli hostages, mind you).
On top of that, Democrats are at their lowest polling numbers ever -- so they are trying to win control of the House by redistricting in the middle of a 10-year Census cycle. Oh, economic optimism is up, so they have a tough road.
And Tulsi Gabbard's revelations about the Russia collusion investigation make it clear that Obama's lieutenants lied to Congress. How deeply was he himself involved? The media continue to ignore the evidence, but we certainly won't.
Special guests:
Nick Gilbertson - Breitbart News White House correspondent, on EU deal
Frances Martel - Breitbart News foreign editor, on Trump abroad and Russia
John Spencer - urban warfare expert, on humanitarian aid and war in Gaza
Bradley Jaye - Breitbart News congressional correspondent, on the ...
