No sooner had I finished my 450-page draft of the biography of Rhoda Kadalie, and sent it along on a path to the publisher, when I realized there were three blank pages between the table of contents and the acknowledgments. I had forgotten to put the dedication in before turning it in.
I was tempted to fix the problem (which I did) and send a new version (which I did not). I told myself: you have to let it go.
You have to let the publisher, and the editor, do what they do, and then you can make whatever fixes are needed. In fact, it's better to have at least one mistake that you know about -- a principle I learned from the holiday of Passover, when you leave a few pieces of leavened bread around the house the night before the holiday. The idea is that if you know there are a few crumbs that you will find, your awareness will be sharper to find those pieces of bread (forbidden on the holiday) that you don't know about.
It's done; it's in; it will continue to grow, in my mind and in the hands of the editor, but for now, I need to let that process happen by moving on, for now.
And I still have the monthly bills to do -- plus my taxes for 2021, ugh.
This is the portion that all journalists should love: the Torah tells the story of the 12 spies, only two of whom tell the truth when the other ten shade it in a negative away (perhaps to suit a political agenda that is opposed to Moses).
It's not that the ten "lying" spies misconstrue the facts about the Land of Israel; rather, they interject their opinions that the land is impossible to conquer, which strikes unnecessary terror into the hearts of the people.
We have many examples of such fake news today -- from the Iranian propaganda outlets spreading false claims that they are winning the war, to California politicians spreading false horror stories about ICE raids in L.A.
The people realize, too late, that they have been fooled, and once they are condemned to die in the desert, they try to rush into Israel -- only to be defeated by the inhabitants, as the spies predicted that they would be.
But as consolation, God gives the people new commandments -- focused on things they must ...
This week's portion discusses the procedure for lighting the menorah, the holy seven-branched lamp, in the Tabernacle (and later the Temple). It also describes an episode where the people crave meat, and God punishes them by giving it to them in excess. We also read the story of Miriam, Moses's sister, who is punished with the spiritual skin blemish of tzara'at for speaking about her brother, thus violating the prohibition against lashon hara (evil tongue).
I heard a fantastic sermon this week about the lighting of the menorah: that while only the priests were qualified to clean and purify the menorah, anyone could light it. A reminder that each of us can inspire others along the way.
This week we study the vow of the Nazirite; a reminder that sometimes trying to be too holy is excessive, and the best we can do is to be the best that we are.
https://www.chabad.org/parshah/torahreading_cdo/aid/2495720/p/complete/jewish/Naso-Torah-Reading.htm
